catching up with old friends

this past week i ran into and met up with a bunch of old friends and classmates from high school and elementary / middle school.

there's always a bit of trepidation when you're preparing to meet up with them. you always make sure you look your best as you prepare to regale them with a livelier version of the drabness, or well, the ROUTINE, that comes with growing up and being responsible. i mean seriously, outside of my closer friends, when someone asks me what i've been up to, do i really want to get into the finer details of what i've truly been up to the last few years?

then of course, there are times you run into old class mates and as you spend the few minutes chatting it up, your mind is at the same time sizing him or her up. you begin to compare what they look like now to what you remember them to look like back in the day. and you hope and pray you look better now than the last time they remember seeing you as well.

self insecurities ba? hahaha. actually, i pretty much believe this is basic human nature ;)

kind of connected to all this: i recently "found" the very first BIG love of my life (circa grade 6). actually, i stalked him for a few months and finally got the courage to invite him to be my "friend" :) i've actually known for quite some time that he was married and yet, the thought of speaking with him again created crazy butterflies in my tummy. i actually don't think those go away. parang the butterflies hibernate for years until you see that special someone again. that's when they wake up again and madly flutter and dance around your tummy.

ANYWAY, beyond all that though, seeing old friends is a real treat. i thoroughly enjoyed my years growing up and catching up with friends and reminiscing about days past is always a nice break from battling out (ok fine.. passionately living) life as we know it now.

i'm approaching 10 years since highschool graduation. grabe, ang bilis! i need to start saving for the get togethers i know will most likely happen in boracay and bali. jusko, not even done with my trip this august and there are new trips to plan for kaagad. ehm.. maybe steady income first noh?! :D